Not much to update lately, unless I recently exchanged my Agnes b watch with my closest lad.  His watch is gorgeous with the "multi-year calendar" on it.  The layout is very attractive.  I am surprised he proposed to exchange with me.  I never did that before, even with Esther.  That sweet congee on my sick day was pretty impressive, mate!

Think I should keep my track back to yoga classes and gym exercise, after a few days of rest.  Keep it up little dinosaur!

Someone says to build a good relationship, the first thing you need to do is keep your patience.  Then the next step is to pay your efforts, no matter there is returns or not.  It is not a financial plan you can analyze.  Risk is to be taken but not evaluated.  You will be paid off someday.  It's all you have to trust on afterall.  When Mandy Moore sings "Have a little faith in me", I thought she is telling us the same.

I hate when it rains every morning these days.  Whenever I wake up and look up the windows nothing is there except acidic water, pouring like the blood of my heart.  I feel headache and chest pain.

I do miss the time we were together.  Flashes are back in my mind all the times whenever I go to a cinema, walk in the street or look at my donald duck mug.  Yet it seems he is not going to mend whatever we are missing.  Our needs are different and my value is likely insignificant.  I cannot say we are over because we simply did not start at the ground.  I visualized all the things which he is not with.  I love him, and in the meantime, hate him much.

God, am I helpless?  I couldn't sleep well and I want to get rid of this depressing situation.  I know I have so much troubles but I have no direction how to deal with them.  Maybe when I stay longer in this castle, shall I be recovered.  I am lost for years anyway.

Oxford, Cambridge?  Well it would be already blessful for me, if I could ever have a chance to study overseas.